Release Date: 06.26.17
COVER DESIGN: KANAXA
When Brian “Brin” Schubert’s condo floods, he takes his co-worker up on the offer to stay on his crappy futon for a while. The last thing he expects is for his friend’s roommate to be the one guy he despises the most. The same guy who stomped on his heart senior year of high school. And by the looks of the girl on his arm, the same man who’s still deep inside the closet.
Nicholas Dell never predicted that eleven years later, one of his greatest regrets would show up on his doorstep down on his luck. Nick has made some terrible mistakes—story of his life—and he’s been paying for them ever since. And if the guilt and shame aren’t enough, his first crush had to turn into one of the sexiest men he’s ever laid eyes on.
Nick and Brin have weeks to steer clear of each other. Weeks to avoid strangling each other. But when stubbornness leads to skyrocketing sexual tension, hate-sex doesn’t seem like such an awful way to work through their frustration. Except hate is a powerful emotion, especially when it’s turned inward. And in Nick’s case he’s been drowning in a sea of self-loathing for so long, he can’t see his way out.
As Brin reconnects with Nick, his perception of what really happened in their past begins to change. He’s finally ready to forgive him and take a second chance on the one guy who stirs him like no other. But Nick’s demons are complicated, heart-wrenching…demanding. So devastating, he might never allow himself true happiness—even with the one man who’s always owned his heart.
Tally pawed at the pillow for a few seconds before finally sinking down, apparently resigned to her position. I straightened to back out of the room, only then allowing my gaze to slide over Brin’s sleeping form. My pulse spiked when I noticed his eyes on me.
“Not sure Tally will want to sleep without you,” he rasped out. The words were like a thunderbolt to my chest. As if he was referring to more than the dog finding her way to my bed.
“Not sure I’ll want to sleep without her,” I replied in a hoarse voice, attempting to get my emotions under control.
Without you. Because you’ve taken up residence inside my heart once again. But maybe you’ve always been there, winding inside my rib cage, coiling around my lungs. Making it impossible to breathe, to think, to stop wanting.
As I turned to leave, his warm fingers curled around my wrist, searing into my skin. My breath caught in my throat. It was the first time he made the first move and my heart bloomed into an impossibly large bouquet of hope and aching desire inside my chest.
Our gazes snagged and held as his other hand slowly reached for the edge of the blanket and pulled it aside.
Brin’s a pretty average guy. He seemed a little aimless at first but as his familial issues are uncovered we understand that he’s just seeking approval and a little lost. This lack of connection to his father leaves him yearning for affection and connection with someone, hence leading him to be a self-proclaimed needy bottom. He has an amazing heart and is ready to give it to someone.
Nick is a mess and pretty much has been since high school after tragedy left their family reeling. He is wracked with guilt and is self-punishing, not living at all. He feels his whole life is to be a penance for what he sees as his crime. When he lets go and lives in the moment, he and Brin are pretty amazing together. Nick is a tender heart and truly needs someone to take care of…which is perfect because Brin desperately wants someone to take care of him.
Brin goes through a bit of healing while Nick goes through major discovery and healing. As I said, their story really gets amazing near the end but the buildup was very slow. I loved the last few chapters.
This appears to be the start of a series, but I’m not sure where it’s going from here. Maybe a side character is coming or maybe we’ll get more of these two.
About the Author
Mother, wife, reader, dreamer. Christina lives in the Midwest with her husband and son–her two favorite guys. She’s addicted to lip balm, coffee, and kissing. Because everything is better with kissing.
She writes MM Contemporary as well as Adult and New Adult Romance. She believes in happily-ever-afters for all, so reading and writing romance for everybody under the rainbow helps quench her soul.